My Heart Is Open
The moment I knew my heart was open for love was when I wanted to get to know everything about the person I was seeing. I had so many questions: how were you as a child? What is the first thing you think of when you wake up? Can you describe love? When was the last time your heart got truly broken? I had so many questions that I didn’t even think of myself.
Most people are scared to talk about feelings, and I get it. Human emotions are difficult to relay because they’re constantly fluctuating. So how do you know if someone likes you now but changes their mind about you later? That piece is difficult. If there’s anything I’ve learned at age 26, which is still young by the way lmao, it’s that yes you have to put yourself out there. But, you also need to know that as you’re seeing someone, there should be no confusion— you start feeling safe to be your truest self. Pay close attention to who you are when you are with that person. Most often than not, how you act with that person is how you’ll end up becoming over the years as you continue your connection.
And maybe you’re waiting for that breakthrough. Just keep your heart open. Know what you want/what you don’t. How you want to be treated. I’ll give you me as an example, one of the most difficult books I read was “The Five Love Languages” by Gary Chapman. Well it was probably hard because I read it a few weeks after my breakup (which was 2 years ago btw — fucken hooray). But it was difficult because I realized that I didn’t understand my own love language and that of my previous my partner. I took it as an opportunity though to try to understand.
So What Is Love?
One-Word: Free
All I will say is, don’t give up on love. I’ve been single for two years. It’s been an absolute journey and sometimes it does get lonely. But, I’m not desperate because I know who I am as a person and what I bring to the table. So, if you’re wondering if you should get into that relationship, as long as you feel safe, secure, and most importantly free, then yes get into it!!
Can’t wait to hear about it.
xoxo
Gaby