W.A.Y.S.
I had started this website just a little over a year ago, mostly because I needed an outlet to process my emotions about the breakup I had experienced. Little did I know too that I would enjoy blogging, painting, and attempting to write poetry, which feel free to check out (I’m quite the painter haha). Reader, just know this blog isn’t about my breakup—it’s more about how I found my true self in midst of absolute chaos as I reflect on how much I’ve evolved in one year. I share because I know there’s someone out there who might benefit from my experience
The human heart is such a beautiful and complex organ. Without a heart, you literally cannot live, and there’s just so much to experience in this life. We are born not knowing how we will turn out, and as you age, you start to realize that all you want to do is leave this world better than you found it through your purpose. I truly believe everyone has a purpose whether they recognize it or not. And some people walk this earth never knowing their purpose simply because they followed someone else’s path instead of carving out their own and seeking their truth.
You’re never really the same after you lose someone (even lose to death). At this point last year, I really didn’t know how I was going to make it, but here I am despite it all enjoying what life has to offer me. “What is stronger than the human heart which shatters over and over and still lives.” Truth is, I have yet to experience more heartbreaks (LOL). But the best part of this process for me was learning to heal my mind, body, and soul because I discovered who I was in my own darkest moments and what I’m capable of. One really doesn’t appreciate the ups of life when you know what it’s like to be in rock bottom. I’m not saying I was in rock bottom entirely, but I did have to address the toxicity that lived inside me. And the pandemic pretty much streamlined that process because I couldn’t have any outside distractions, which was good because I had to sit with own damn self. I can’t help to wonder though whether my most creative ideas/self work comes from pain? How else do people get inspired? (That’s probably for another time though).
Within the past year, I’ve become a runner, a reader, a writer, a banker, a cook, a coffee connoisseur, a spinner, but most importantly a life-long learner. I couldn’t have been any happier where I am in life. And what excites me the most is that I have yet to experience this with my future husband. (I said it. I went there lol). And what keeps me going in this life is that I know my future needs me to become my best version of myself. I need to rise so that others can rise, and that’s why I know I have yet to give so much to this life. All that I do is for my family, for my future family, and for myself. But for now, I’m going to enjoy this ride of the life and welcome change.
Btw, W.A.Y.S = Why Aren’t You Smiling?