Surrender
It’s been a while since I’ve last written. It’s been a crazy past few weeks. Had a chance to visit my best friend in Chicago, which was absolutely great— loved every moment of it. Fantastic city. Chicago is a must go back when this pandemic is over. The following are just reminders of what I continue to uncover about myself, my perceptions, and my environment.
Gentle Self-Reminders:
I am a product of my past and current environment. The way I think and go about things are embedded in how I was raised and how I was taught to view the world. In part, this is good but also bad. Not everyone from my past/childhood was a good teacher, so I must choose which teachings will enable me to be the best version of myself.
Whomever I choose to engage with it and spend most of my time with are the people who have a greater influence on who I become, so I must pick people that will continue to push me to be my best and hold me accountable to be my best. This creates my future environment.
One thing I can never buy back is time. So I must choose wisely on how I spend it moving forward.
When I found my peace of mind, I realized I had never lost anything or anyone. Instead, I discovered my own damn self.
The world doesn’t slow down because you want it to. It will continue to move forward. So I have to keep going. Only forward movements, no backward movements.
Everything has a purpose to teach me something —whether it’s a conversation, an encounter, a reminder. Because I give it meaning. It can mean nothing if I choose it to be nothing.
The first time I said “I am love” touching my own heart out loud. Wow. That was some whole new self-love shit I had never experienced. I was using my crystal singing bowls playing my heart chakra bowl.
I have to trust the signs, and when the time comes, I have to be ready. I must also show the universe that I’m ready by doing my own part.
I must strive to connect to everything and be attached to nothing because…
Everything must go. And that’s life.